Right after Cana turned 1, I reached the bottom-struggling with anxiety, striving for perfection and trying to figure out how to make these coexist with God in my life too. For years I dealt with this-not telling anyone how bad my mind and heart were in conflict-I judged, I controlled everything I could get my hands on, I imagined every worst case scenario-then created and implemented a plan to avoid it in order to hold life together in the way that I thought was "right". I couldn't make decisions anymore as I had worked myself into so many corners, there was never a way to meet all my own conditions and then finally during a series of panic attacks I realized if I didn't ask for help I was never going to be the mother, the wife, the woman, the friend God had planned for me to be. I finally got honest with those close to me and with myself and in this honesty I found healing. Jesus does not want us to be fearful, He does not want us to be paralyzed with anxiety, He does not want us to sit back and watch life happen - with Him we can find true joy, we can find what we were created for, and we can be passionate about sharing, doing what we love, and loving others. I blog and create because I love it, I want to see with Jesus can do with my honesty, my life, and my story - I want to share with others so that they too may be brave and find what they love and do it!
The best things in life are the things that go together so well they continue to suprise you...
